When He speaks... I listen.
It's something heavy because I've been feeling it since last week.
The leaves are dancing, the birds have gone away.
Im not afraid to suffer.
Jesus is on my side.
9.05.2011
9.04.2011
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I would like to start this day off by thanking God for keeping me safe even at the times I put myself in danger. My heart is a beast and will eat me alive for anything ungodly. I could go without a shower for a week and it won't feel as dirty as speaking profanity. I can roll around in maggots and will feel filthier for telling a lie. I could be covered in spiders but that won't even come close to the feeling that I have if my Savior is not pleased with me.
I look at myself as a blank canvas. I have no kids, no husband, no boyfriend, hardly any friends, good health, I'm 20years old, no major health issues, and Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. I have the potential to conquer anything, but potential will not make it alone. I am a blank canvas. What I paint on this canvas is up to me. I would like to be colorful yet still pure. I would like to be vivid and bright like the light that God gave me to shine. As of late, I haven't been living up to my full Christian potential and I am putting an end to this now.
Today was a very special day, but some things in my recent and late past has been tearing me apart and eating me up and I didn't even know until there was only a drop of my heart left. I closed my heart to so many people. I built yet another tower of grudges after God had helped me released the first batch. I allowed the outside world to distort my inner thoughts and tamper with my heart. But I've been watching God at work. Every time I make a mess on this clean white canvas he gave me, he cleans it up for me and I have yet another chance to start again. He has protected me from harm with His rejection. I try to go one way and He builds up a big giant wall with red flags all around it saying WRONG WAY! I listen and turn around but end up taking another path of wrong. It's amazing how stubborn I can be. But I am thankful to still be a blank canvas. It's finally time to paint and I am picking my colors out wisely. I've been listening and now I have to show what I've heard. It is time to once again go back and never leave.
I love Church of the Champions so much. They believe, they love, and they restore. I'm putting my heart back in the right place and opening it for business once again. Love is now in full effect! I... AM... A... BLANK... CANVAS.
I look at myself as a blank canvas. I have no kids, no husband, no boyfriend, hardly any friends, good health, I'm 20years old, no major health issues, and Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. I have the potential to conquer anything, but potential will not make it alone. I am a blank canvas. What I paint on this canvas is up to me. I would like to be colorful yet still pure. I would like to be vivid and bright like the light that God gave me to shine. As of late, I haven't been living up to my full Christian potential and I am putting an end to this now.
Today was a very special day, but some things in my recent and late past has been tearing me apart and eating me up and I didn't even know until there was only a drop of my heart left. I closed my heart to so many people. I built yet another tower of grudges after God had helped me released the first batch. I allowed the outside world to distort my inner thoughts and tamper with my heart. But I've been watching God at work. Every time I make a mess on this clean white canvas he gave me, he cleans it up for me and I have yet another chance to start again. He has protected me from harm with His rejection. I try to go one way and He builds up a big giant wall with red flags all around it saying WRONG WAY! I listen and turn around but end up taking another path of wrong. It's amazing how stubborn I can be. But I am thankful to still be a blank canvas. It's finally time to paint and I am picking my colors out wisely. I've been listening and now I have to show what I've heard. It is time to once again go back and never leave.
I love Church of the Champions so much. They believe, they love, and they restore. I'm putting my heart back in the right place and opening it for business once again. Love is now in full effect! I... AM... A... BLANK... CANVAS.
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